I can't say that I feel more certainty, for me, being trans is more of a question than an answer. It’s to ask the right questions so I can learn how I want to relate to my body, with other people, other critters, to the end of the world, and pain—instead of finding the answer in “who I am”. It’s asking myself honestly where the pain is coming from, when it’s worth it to endure, how to be to heal our collective pain, what am I willing to gamble, what am I willing to let go. I think these questions make more sense than ruminating on if I’m “truly non-binary”, if I’m just doing it for attention because I don’t have any real worries, or if I just “gave up” on being a woman.